A lot of my social history has been about being on the outside of groups and wanting to fit in. This includes the most primary group of all: I'm an only child who was culturally, emotionally, and eventually physically alienated from my parents. So while I never expect to be allowed to fit in, and don't really even feel comfortable fitting in, it's ( Read more... )

I've noticed in myself lately a tendency to not identify with any of my interests or activities. At its best, this grants me a certain amount of freedom to try new things and continually self-define myself, but most often it just reflects fear and lack of commitment ( Read more... )

1. I made an unusual musical connection today. The shrilly thin treble voice used by female Bollywood singers (a vocal styling I detest), has a parallel in the female vocals of some R&B songs. It's not so extreme as the Bollywood case, but I do hear it, and it's meant to be sexy. I find it infantile, and perhaps the sexiness is supposed to come ( Read more... )

(originally posted as a comment in dbt_support ). for me, something that seems to get in the way of acting healthy is the feeling that being healthy is somehow a way of conforming to other people's invalidating ideas of what or who i should be. i'm discovering that certain rebellious, but also constructive -- or at least not self-destructive, acts help me get ( Read more... )

So far, so OK as far as the day, and my resolution goes. :-)

Jonathon Schwartz played Dylan's "If you see her, say hello", which was an unexpected surprise for a show that concentrates on Sinatra, Big Band, Jazz Vocal, oh and Sinatra. Could've sworn Schwartz announced the song as being from "Blood on the Rocks". A lil too much New Year's cheer ( Read more... )